i dunno why... but i feel so.. lousy.. not myself... not to offend those kind people out there but i'm so dubbed by people who just dun appreciate the effort i make to brighten their day.. serious.. i know everyone has a bad day at the office.. who doesnt.. doesnt anyone care abt anybody now.. u mean turn down others' help is a trend now?? cos alot of people seemingly made it sound as if it is.. i understand now everyone is packed with studies and what ever crap u have in school.. i'm not excluded either..
i'm just making a small tini wini effort make sure you'll get a good nite sleep, knowing that there's someone who understands.. but i feel so... shitty that most of the people i know.. jus.. find rejecting help a wonderful and great act... aggrrhhh!! if putting aside time for friends isnt allow, den i guess i'm a complete failure as a friend.. and what ever things i've done for my pals.. even people i dun even noe is just nothing but furtile and in vain...
when these sorta stuffs happen, i dunno whether to slam my fist against the wall in frustration or to cry into my pillow.. i dunno.. i really dunno...!! can someone tell me if i'm wrong to feel in this way... cos sometimes i jus dunno y i exist when i cant even brighten someone's day....
God STILL ROX!!! CHEERS~~!!
GoD fOuNd Me
aT 10:19 PM
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
haven been feeling too good to blog.. looks like that dun-feel-like-bloggin feeling lasted for around a week.. sorry to the guys who come often... most of my grading stuffs has been over.. umm.. i'm only left with an interview.. one written report.. and my mid semester exams.. all these stuffs are coming my way within these 2 weeks.. quite hectic yeah??
i'm done with one presentation.. didnt prepare at all.. all i did was look at the slides and speak.. was quite fluent in the beginning.. den slowly.. i start to stall.. haha.. dunno y.. but only for a while.. den continue my presentation.. at least i know i did better than those smart ass's in my class.. not dat i wan to beat them flat.. some how they just dun seem to understand.. books doesnt cover everything in life.. it's the experiences that counts.. it's the stupid fights u get into, the cheats u fall for, the friends who comfort and then betray u.. and those peeps who stand up for who u are.. these are the things that make LIFE!! and of cos.. GOD!! been street smart is more valued den being book smart... who cares that u earn a millon bucks when u get cheated for two millons... yeah??
haaa... but these guys.. wont listen to me or my frenz telling dem.. cos we are like.. pest to dem.. is like.. they always gif us the wont-you-just-mug kinda look.. sick!!! i was like.. mug only when neccessary.. sheesh! i know i know... u might disagree.. but cant always 'hang out' in school whole of ur schooling life rite?? that would be quite sad.... hahaa.... no offends who still think sch is a great place to hang out.. =P
God Rox!! CHEERS!!!!!
GoD fOuNd Me
aT 11:17 PM
Thursday, August 19, 2004
as i was listening to my media player with my labtop... this song played.. haha.. i dunno if u all have ever heard before.. but it's a nice song.. seriously.. check out the lyrics... =)
Everything
by Stereo Fuse
I remember you
do you remember me too
born on the 14th of July
the smell of roses made her cry
though you're going far from home
rest assured you're not alone
Cause I would give everything that I own
I'd give you my heart and this skin and these bones
the sun the moon the Earth the sky
I've never even stopped to wonder why
I would do anything
and I would give everything
to be your everything
Seems like such a long long time
since your body crossed my mind
but I think that you should know
it wasn't I who had to go
Cause I would give everything that I own
I'd give you my love and this heart made of stone
the sun the moon the Earth the sky
the motorcycle that I like to ride
I would do anything
and I would give everything
to be your everything
But if ever you should stray
just sing along and I will play
or look into your hands
I'm slipping through them like a tiny grain of sand
I remember you
do you remember me too
seems like such a long long time
since I held you near and called you mine
Cause I would give everything that I own
I'd give you my heart and this skin and these bones
the sun the moon the Earth the sky
a brand new car that you and I could drive
I would do anything
and I would give everything
to be your everything
it's really a nice song.. check it out if u have the time... God rox!! CHEERS!!
GoD fOuNd Me
aT 9:05 PM
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
haizz... rotten week.. so far, so bored.. i got a report to hand in by next monday.. had food poison thru out the whole week.. even as i type this my tummy is churning inside.. but the pain isnt as bad as it was in the beginning of the week.. the pain was like unbearable on monday.. i never like stomach problems.. suffer sia..
on tuesday.. i received a warning letter from my school.. for poor attendance.. haa.. i thought percentage in attendance for a particular module is like.. combine all the lectures, tutorials and labs and den see the percentile of it.. i only miss two tutorials and a warning letter was sent to me.. how uninviting.. =(
what more.. it states that my parents had to reply why i miss classes.. haaa.. what does my parents gotta do wif my attitude.. they were hardly involve in my life since sec sch.. not that i yearn for it.. but ever since.. i've been out there fighting my own battles.. hardly or never tell them wad happens in sch nor cca nor life... heck lahh.. my parents wrote the letter liao so i'll just gif it to the lecture later todae..
i'm gonna make sure i'll miss any more classes.. last year i was a good boy.. haa.. attending every class.. this year.. too bad.. but at least i'm able to learn.. sometimes i wonder whether is it better to miss lectures and do something more productive or go to lecture but not listening to lesson.. hmmm.. i think the latter one is more sensible.. but i dunnno.. i'm in a system so i hafta obey the system.. yeah?
now i totally cant find any motivation to push myself.. i cant see myself going into university.. i dunno y.. recently i felt it blown away.. but i hope it will just come back.. i pray hard it will.. i found out my dad sold the house in australia... it was kinda meant for me so went i go over there to study, i dunhafta like stay in the hostel or anything.. soooo... haiz..
God STILL rox!! CHEERS!! Never Ever doubt His plans for me! nor YOU!! =)
GoD fOuNd Me
aT 11:51 PM
Monday, August 16, 2004
beginning of a new week... week 7 liao.. counting down the days to exam.. so how i feel both confident and not confident.. cos some modules.. i definately can pull thru.. some i have problem understanding dem.. but i dun really want to noe why.. is it possible that i not take the exams and still pass the modules?? =) haa... dreaminggg..
2 more weeks to vacation.. 3 more weeks to exam.. i'm not suppose to fail.. i'm not a failure.. nobody likes to fail.. nor anyone likes a like failure.. haa.. i'm gonna start studying soon.. studying.. had problem with it 2 semester ago.. totally didnt wanna do any abt it.. so i scrap thru 3 out of 4 and fail one... the cool thing was.. at the end of the academic year.. i studied.. put in alot of effort.. and God gave me wonderful results.. which i think back now... i wonder how i manage to get such good grades..
got so many stuffs to clear by these 2 weeks.. oral presentation next week.. report to hand in next week.. editing of report by end of this week.. revision to do.. not that i cant do... but.. i dunhaf the movitation to do it... i can take out the stuffs i wanna do but that's all.. nothing will happen.. i guess i betta start studying...
God rox!! CHEERS~!~!
GoD fOuNd Me
aT 9:09 PM
Friday, August 13, 2004
mannn... friday the 13th.. i dont usually believe in such stuffs... but today was a hit!! i cant believe my luck.. got caught by traffic police for jay walking.. i was caught at city hall there.. stupid mannn! although it was only 20 bucks... but i really scare sia.. cos there was this police guy carrying a video cam.. what if my face appears on tv??!! siannnn... this is the second time in my 18 year life that i kena mass media...
the first was when STREATS came to our school to do some publicity they wanted a guy to be like... front cover.. i was it!! holding their papers then show it off.. sia lahhh.. that one.. everyone in spore keep staring at me... like i some famous guy!! but that was a nice thing... this time i appearing on tv for jaywalking... mannn.. but everyone does it.. so i dun thik i'll be hard on me.. haha.. not like i killed someone.. lol!!
what was worse was.... i'm only less then half a metre away from the LEGAL jaywalking area... mannnn!! how bad can it be... if i had like side step a little i would be caught and pay 20 bucks or appear even on tv!! moreover i was wearing this mighty ducks jesery.. what can be easier to spot wif!! arrgghhh... heck mannn.. i'll hafta tell everyone abt this mannn.. my parents too.. this is sooooo sadddd!!
by the wayyyy.. is putting my face on tv without permission against human rights?? haha..
anywayy.. God still rox!! CHEERS!!!~~
GoD fOuNd Me
aT 3:41 PM
Thursday, August 12, 2004
3 dayssss since i blogged.. at least i'm betta den some who like only blog once a month.. =x anywayyy.. blappp! i'm not photogenic at all!! pennnyyyy anddd meeee! hahaa.. ok.. i'm going high... school hasnt been it's best.. but i wouldnt said bad cos it could haf been worse.. at least i'm done with my projects and what ever stuffs dat has to be done... still got one module the report not completely done.. cos we still hafta do an oral presentation on it like 2 weeks time.. so far sia!thursday liaooo.. tml friday.. i seem to put up entries on thurs huh.. maybe cos it's the most boring day.. haha.. okkkk.. crap...
bye bye bye... wad the!! that song so 2-years-ago.. but it's still on radio.. i wish i could just go thru life liddat.. but on the other hand i wouldnt be able to appreciate wad God has install for me.. like.. my academic results.. my frenz.. my career and most importantly my future girlfriend and wife.. timeeee!! that's nearly wad's everyone telling me.. christian books, people, mature christians.. i suppose that's wad it shld be.. patience.. waiting upon the promises of God.. surprisingly.. i was reading Josh Harris' book on courtship.. and like yesterday i met up wif a great christian fren.. he's a mature christian to me... definately he has gone thru more den i did.. both sources use the same example of telling me to wad to do abt this BGR thingy..
as u know.. Adam is the first man that God created right? he made to look after God's creation.. so nice of God.. but how was Eve created?? God put Adam to sleep... see!! God put him to Adam to sleep.. did Adam do anything to get Eve? did he like work himself up to find Eve?? NO! He was put to sleep and when he woke up.. Eve was in front of him.. soo sweet of God..
It's God that provide our future spouse.. it's always impatience that's driving us to want to noe who is that special one.. who is other one to spend and share ur life wif... i suppose all these questions can wait.. what's important now is... how are u suppose to use wad God has given us now to glorify him.. how.. remember.. the main reason why He given us His blessings is bcos He wants us to share the blessings to others.... so that He will be glorified!!!
God Rox 4 eva!!~~~ CHEERS!!!
GoD fOuNd Me
aT 8:37 PM
Monday, August 09, 2004
Happy 39th Birthday Singapore..!! hmmm.. it makes me wonder whether does SM Lee and PM Goh blog.. haha!! ehh.. maybe the going-to be PM does! lol! how cool will that be... anywayyy.. i only watch the fireworks =P nothing realli realli interest me in the NDP.. hahaaa
i realise this year hardly anybody put the singapore flag out sia.. ehh.. who display the singapore flag outside their home, can u raise your hands?? -keeping my hands down- i see.. one.. two.. three hands.. any more? hmmm.. not alot huh.. i know.. my whooollleee block right... only one unit put mannn... pitiful.. travel around singapore i also dun see much.. i wonder does foreigners know's it's national day.. hahaaa.. maybe next time it's a law to put singapore flag during national day.. that would be so not cooolll..
tomorrow got schooooollll!! ahhhh.. week 6 liaooo... 2 more weeks oral presentation.. must dress smart smart.. maybe go get new clothes.. 4 more weeks exam liaooo.. haizz. need to start studying soon.. a couple of modules i haf no idea wad the lecturer teaching.. haha.. bad rite? but i got my stuffs right for ASE and maths.. haha.. maths i got zac to teach me.. sia lahhh.. he made maths sooo simple.. i need to get my act right b4 exam.. or else.. head sure roll..
by the wayyy... i realise august oso alot of people's birthday.. wassup with august sia! my month also.. haha.. no wonder people go broke on may and august =P my conclusion lahhh..
God Rox!! bless ya lots!! CHEERS!!
GoD fOuNd Me
aT 10:10 PM
Sunday, August 08, 2004
for the last couple of days, i've have been reading Joshua Harris' book.. "Boy Meet Girls:hello to courtship" it wasnt my first reading it though.. in fact it's my second time.. the first time i read it was 2 years ago.. i think.. i realise it was a great book den i started recommending to most people i know.. haha.. but this time, i promise myself i'll try not to forget what i read in the book.. so i haf kinda copy down notes.. not everything but the main points..
the book has kinda change my mind set about relationships.. really.. i know.. couple of years i'm a totally different person... if i would to write down what i was last time.. mannn.. you all peeps will confirm have a 180degrees change of attitude towards me.. haha.. if u wanna know.. contact me.. i'll be glad to tell u how i've changed.. provided u dun use my past against me.. hahaa..
anywayyy.. they hasnt been much happening these past few days.. friday was out till 11pm.. saturday reach home about 7pm.. den sunday.. out till 11pm.. haha..
today.. after church boon hwee meet me go play pool.. haha.. 9Ft table.. 9 ball.. race to 10 racks.. hahaa.. though i won him.. but it was only because i was lucky and my buddy was off form.. haha.. veri ex siaaa... $10.80 per hour.. sia lahhh.. broke liaooo!! but i'm cool.. haha..
at last!! got worship practiceeee.. something i so yearn for since i attended the youth rally at IBC.. haha.. playing in the main congregation next week.. cool mannnn.. praise God that He gave me this chance.. God Rox!! CHEERS!!
GoD fOuNd Me
aT 11:38 PM
Friday, August 06, 2004
whoaa.. i realise yesterday while working out in the gym.. i strain my left thigh's hamstring.. kinda painful.. even till now.. still can feel the slight strain on it *ouch* maybe i shouldnt rush the knee.. but i cant help it.. cos i cant stand myself lifting weights dat are soooo light.. funni but true.. and i have the tendency to compare.. so i'll use my good leg.. which is my right to lift the weights.. and den apply the same weightage to my left knee and usually i wont be able to lift it.. and i'll start feeling sucky.. stupid rite?? but again.. it's true... so now.. my right leg muscles are huge.. while the left is still tini wini.. in respect to the right.. =s
it's friday oreadi!! so fasttt.. another week gone.. i got report due on sat.. at least i'm only left with the appendix and cover page to do.. that should be easily completed by todae.. cos 12pm finish sch.. oh ya.. gotta meet zac.. cos he teaching me some stupid maths.. but i got some idea how to do liao.. haha.. nvm.. it was some time since we both met up.. so jus meet lor.. best freun wad.. haha.. dis year he 'a's liaoo.. me.. only poly 2nd year.. hope we both go into same uni =) and become roommates!! haha!! dreaming sia..
anywayy.. school starts at 8am.. haizzz.. tml.. sat.. 9am.. i wanna sleeppp!! at least i save some money todae.. haha.. wkend can spend liao.. i promise chariss we're going shopping... and shopping we shall!! but i haven got the faintest idea of wad to buy.. haha cds?? again??!! haha.. clothes? depends where we go.. nvm.. that shall bother me later todae.. haha.. my parents wont be around the weekend.. i hope they give me extra cash.. cos i'll be alone.. =) haha..
okie dokie.. i gtg peeps!! God Rox!! take care too! CHEERS!!!
GoD fOuNd Me
aT 12:30 AM
Thursday, August 05, 2004
weeee!! i went to workout todae again... at least today is wif my brudddderrr.. he in SP rugby sia.. now.. look so rugby player... i always wanted to play rugby.. but the fact that i'm soooo injury prone just prevents me from doing it.. but even training sessions can get injuried sia! imagine getting hurt wifout playing.. haha.. that's soooo.. ahem.. rugbyyy..
i'm working my way back to being physically fit of soccer.. my follow-up check up is the first week of september.. i'll see wad the doctor has to say.. i'm still making it up for missing one physiotherapy session.. haha.. workiinggg real hard.. but wad i fear is.. thru the process of working towards being able to play soccer.. something will hit me.. and i'll start questioning myself why am i "torturing" myself jus to get fit again.. u see.. when i lift weights dring physio.. other patients are like... only 1 or 2 weights.. i'm lifting.. 7.. 8.. sometimes 10... a little crazy rite? initially my physio a little scare scare.. but i think he realise y i wanna work until so hard.. it's the passion.. passion burning within me.. the passion to be able to touch soccer ball again.. to step into the streetsoccer court again.. the burning desire to step unto the green pitch...
anywayyy.. i'm determine to get back on the pitch before baptist cup.. and no matter what happen... i'll play... playing soccer for God is the best thing on earth..!!!
God bless ya!!! take caresss!! anddd.. CHEERS!!!
GoD fOuNd Me
aT 12:26 AM
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
first time in.. one month plus.. i enter the gym!! hahaa.. kinda long rite?? cos todae sch ended early.. as usual.. reach home around 1pm.. since got nothing to do.. i decided to go to the gym.. great time to go.. cos hardly anybody.. i cant expect it to be empty rite?? public gym moreover is a huge one.. walked to the gym under the blazing sun...... so hot!
started off wif cardio workout first.. since only can do cycling.. so cycling only.. haha.. around 25mins liddat.. can feel a little cramp at the thigh muscles.. decided to work on the muscles concerning the knee first.. so hamstring.. calf.. thigh... quite long i thik.. didnt keep track of time.. the leg part still ok.. cos got go physio... and physio always do the same thing.. hahaaa..
nowww move to upper body.. whoaaaa!! effects of long-time-no-go-gym thingy affected me siaaa! haha.. i had problems lifting weights for my chest muscles.. haha.. feel so stupid.. suddenly feel a little inferior cos they are sooo many hunks who like... lift those weights wif easseee.. mann.. maybe i should haf gone some other day.. in the end.. i workout for.. an hour and a half.. a little short ahh.. at time 2 hrs.. but nvm.. was getting hungry.. cos i missed lunch.. haha..
got my allowances liao!! yippee!! i'll try not to over use.. haha.. i thik most of us haf that.. i'll spend now and somewhere down the month i'll spend a little lesser to make up for the excess expenditure.. haha.. it's always liddat for me.. but dis month not alot.. haiz.. still hafta save up for an electric guitar.. plus amplifier.. plus distorter.. plus cables.. wahhhh!! alot of things to buyy.. =( needa control... tendency to spend is always there.. i wan new clothes.. new shoes( shoes sole torn liao ) *sniff*
no matter what.. God has everything planned out!! =D Jeremiah 29:11 and Numbers 23:19... check it out..
Numbers 23:19 => God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?
Jeremiah 29:11 => For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD , "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
God Rox!! CHEERS!!
GoD fOuNd Me
aT 8:51 PM
Thats Me
ANdReW*
>> i respond to : AnDrEw, dReW, pUfFeR, ZhU Ge
>> 20 yr old guy.. 1.73m tall.. 90kg.. ='(
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>> came from PrEsByTeRiAn HiGh ScHoOl.. rox!
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